Funny how I wrote and post about not forcing myself to read a book but after few weeks, I got the urge to pick a book and read. And within a few days I managed to finished three books. In a few days!! That’s a big accomplishment and I guess that not obliging myself to read a book because of some part of personal agenda is really the only way to go. It just has to be.
It’s been so long since I read a book prior to picking up Anne of Green Gables series. Well, I did read Restore Me, the fourth book of my all-time favorite YA series, Shatter Me. I think the enthusiasm was still there and when I said favorite, I mean it so I know that I will pick up no matter what. It may not be as fast as I devour books before (or how much I read manga and webtoons nowadays) but you could say the fondness is the still there. But picking up a book, it not being part of anything and akin to “A-HA!” moment when it chanced upon, I was completely pleased! I still have it!
Being a bookworm will still be part of me. I may not read books as many as before, but I still have that compelling desire to do it sans the whole “I-need-to-read-again-cos-I-have-to” sort of strange life program. But I learned to let it happen to me naturally, not some goal to accomplishment, and definitely not to show off. I was reluctant to say that I love reading books, bacuse I don’t read as often as before. Per as plenty as before. It may come off as insincere. I remember this one time an internet technician went to our house and was amazed by the sheer number of manga and books we have (I even pointed that little book storage hiding behind his back haha), he said “you love to read books huh?” I said yes. I hesitated but in retrospect I am. I always love reading books. I always be! It’s not about consistency, it’s about the honesty towards it.
Do I love reading book? I do! The number of years I did that was a solid testament to that. I will no longer entertain the idea that I’m not a lover of books by the number of books I read per year. The scarcity isn’t the issue, and it shouldn’t be. You have to love what you read. You have to be interested in what you read. You love this hobby regardless of the quantity!