I’m huge planner! I like to plan things ahead. I want everything perfect when it happens. I love the process of planning things. It excites me, it floors me with so many ideas. But I’m all planning. I fail at executing these ideas. Because I always say I’m not ready hence not doing anything until I’m ready. Because it’s not perfect yet therefore it isn’t the time to do it. And this kind of mindset impacted me in many ways. This is the reason I have huge battle against procrastination because I want to apply my ideas perfectly. And I wouldn’t want it in anyother form and it became such a detrimental habit.
Seeking perfection is sometimes a time waster; to wait is to pass chances. So even I’m not 100% ready that’s fine.
Waiting for perfection is not an answer, one cannot say “I will be ready when I am perfect” because then you will never be ready, rather one must say “I am raw and I am ready just like this right now, how and who I am.
I’ve realized that I will never always be ready. I mean, ready in every occasion? that’s honestly a pipe dream. Impossible! It can’t happen no matter how much time and planning I spend on it. I will never be ready every time in anything, and sometimes life will throw you in a place that you have to do it without planning and without ever being ready. And honestly, that thought scares me because I want things to happen smoothly and perfectly, bumps on the road shake me to the point of giving up and passing chances. And that’s wrong in all levels obviously.
Life is more forgiving than I thought, it isn’t always about personal readiness but being able to utilize what life has given me is important, too.
I don’t remember anymore who said this (someone from twitter I re-tweeted eons ago) but I always keep these words in mind. This person said that it’s OK not to be 100% ready as other aspects of our lives will help us fill in the percentage we’re lacking. In a way that’s comforting, that even I’m not yet there I can still do it. Although mistakes and mishaps still terrify me due to lack of complete preparation, but in the end the will of the person or motivation to do is as important (if not, more so) than being ready. In life we have to compensate in what we lack to continue and that’s actually what I forget most of the time. I just have to do it with what I currently have if I want to make things done. If I always wait ‘til I’m ready I will never ever gonna do it. I don’t want to use my readiness as an excuse anymore for not doing something. I think I’ve done it so much that I’ve reaped a lot of consequences.
No, I’m not ready but that doesn’t mean I have to give up. Ready or not, I have to try.
Are you ready, self? Maybe not, but that’s OK. Preparation is awesome, I still love to prepare and plan things ahead—this is my comfort. But that being said I have to stop this thinking of complete readiness in order to move forward. I know afterthoughts will plague me, pondering on “what ifs” and “I wish I plan more” but I will now find comfort in achieving things with motivation even if my preparation isn’t 100%. Even if I’m not ready I still can do it. There’s some I can do. I just have to try.