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2018/10/14
Fiction / Confessing that I don’t like as much as before is hard pill to swallow.

Let’s put disclaimer first, shall we? This is not me complaining about authors (regardless of the reasons) or me being ice cold b*tch who could not fathom that health comes first! That’s not the topic. Personal all-around welfare of the authors comes first! Always!  It’s just me and how my feelings for the series gradually slid down after numerous hiatuses. And when it comes to series I immensely loved in the past, confessing that I don’t like as much as before is hard pill to swallow.

I have read lots of manga throughout the years, some are too short, a lot has ended, some I still follow like an obligation and there are some that I used to love fiercely but not anymore…or worst, totally forgot about it. Oops? Yeah, these instances happen. Even though I think my attention span is not that short (I couple of series I’m still reading after more than a decade ) but I could only wait for so long. Sometimes I hopped into different series, found new favorites along the way that it sealed the gaping hole that once loved series had. That’s the only way I can cope.

One thing that evident with the now—I don’t love it as much as I used to. And that’s entirely a sad thing to admit. So personally, hiatuses do influence my perception of the series I read.

One thing positive about hiatuses means it’s still continuing and the possibility of getting new material is there albeit it’s up in the air. But the chance is still there. But when I waited long enough sometimes the excitement simmered down. Or at times I was way too confused ‘cos I totally forgot about it. Great example of this is D.Gray-man (). Gosh, I loved this series to pieces before it was on hiatus. But when it came back (scarcely with releases but better than nothing, agree?) I just found myself trying to connect everything from the last time I read it (which was long enough for my brain to remember, I supposed). I even took a refresher in the form of rereading but nah, I still find following it a little difficult now. But there was one thing that evident with the now—I don’t love it as much as I used to. And that’s entirely a sad thing to admit.  So personally, hiatuses do influence my perception of the series I read.

I think the greatest downside for me when it comes to hiatuses is that I still don’t have that closure. Imagine waiting for years, and years, and years. So between a badly ended story to gone hiatuses way too many or way too long, I think I will pick the former…? At least I can move on entirely without all these questions floating in my mind (not that endings pose no questions sometimes loose ends aren’t tied despite the conclusion).  But I guess I just want the official ending rather something that it’s completely unresolved (especially if ended in a cliffhanger and you’re biting your nails trying to gauge if you can muster the courage to wait for so long to find out).

But that’s part of journey I guess? It’s not really in our hands. We have absolutely no say about it especially if the circumstances just wouldn’t let it happen soon. That’s why I think it’s better just to just move on. Waiting can be easier that way. At least that’s how things work for me. Or we could just think of our own endings if the waiting game is not on the table. Patience is indeed a true virtue when it comes to hiatuses!

 
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