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2014/09/30

Thankfully I have the internet to unleash my inner fangirl. And what’s make the internet far more interesting is that I can easily find communities/groups that share the same passion as I am. So fangirling is not really an issue to me, at least if I’m online.

But it’s very different when I’m back to reality.

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Have you done it before? Accidentally fangirled in public?

It’s not that I’m ashamed that I’m bibliophile and an otaku. I think my friends/families know I like these things (ok, not just ‘like’ but LOVE these subjects in a whole other dimension). I’m not really afraid to tell people that I’m very passionate about it (but I don’t voluntary tell this info unless it was brought up). But sometimes when I’m out and suddenly I see my favorite book out so early or find a rare manga copy (or it’s on sale, especially on this occasion). I can’t help but to release my excitement. But seeing I’m in public place and I’m very timid person, who as much as possible do not want to attract unnecessary attention, I have remedied that on-the-spot must fangirl moment. I have mastered the art of inner squeeing.

I hold the book, flip the back, and stare at it. Then stare some more. Check the spine. If the book is unwrapped, I look at the pages. Once more I stare at it before I head to the counter. Oh yeah while doing that my face probably is showing various expression of amusement. Hey, I can’t help but smile, that’s my inner fagirling leaking from its containment. I also carry the book with care and when there’s no one around I bear-hug it like a beloved stuff toy.

If I’m reading an amazing moment and when I’m outside, inner squeeing is a must. If I have my phone, I’ll probably gonna ramble on twitter. Because some book/manga moments deserve to make fuss on the spot but seeing I’m on public I have to contain the squeeing to a minimum. (Doesn’t want a repeat of that incident when I gasped out loud and received weird stares from strangers.)

When the coast is clear (and by that I mean I’m home). I’ll probably gonna share my joy with my sister and gush over and over. And then I go to the internet. Because nothing beats expressing oneself and the feels to everyone who understands. Right, fangirls/boys?

How about you, do you fangirl in public? Or are you like me shy so decided to inner squee, too? Share your experience with me.

 
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