That’s how I felt even before when I tried (operative word: tried) to gain some followers because of book blogging game was fierce back then (think of ARCs). I always thought why me, why this small blog, this tiny ripple in this vast ocean? And then years later I came in to terms that it’s okay to be this tiny (cute? ) ripple in the ocean; it might sound insignificant or unnoticeable but the personal joy it brings to me isn’t something can be labeled or compensated by being popular!
No, goodness, I’m not telling that people who strive to make it out there are only after fame or their motivations are shallow (I don’t know them personally who am I to judge them). Honestly, I do look up to big bloggers who shares their expertise and experience to people. And I know they work hard to achieve what they have now. Even solely an instagrammer is full of hard work (and money me thinks), much more if they are also simultaneously active in all platforms aside from blogging! That ain’t easy, y’know, I bet they spend so much time and even money to achieve those and I salute them! But I’ve decided that it’s not and will never again the reason why I want to blog.
This blog is for me and only for me. If people do find something useful then I’m glad to know but I’m sorry if I always say how much my own enjoyment and personal passion weigh more. Because it is, and it’s not gonna change. But I do hope in small ways, whether it’s insignificant that my readers (if there are) find value in what I write. I don’t mind being tiny ripple—at least it exists and it is happening, that’s totally fine with me.
I think someone said (in twitter I’m not sure who among the people I follow said it or if it was just someone that liked it or retweeted it) but there’s no such thing as big or small bloggers, but I disagree; let’s be frank ‘cos numerically speaking there are big bloggers—the popular ones, the one who people follow and there are small ones like me! To those who are contended with their own blogs and its success. The motivation, effort, and goal that each blogger shouldn’t be dismissed by the number of their followers. It shouldn’t be only just a number game. I think one thing that we should always keep in mind is that each blogger has different and maybe unique motivation and goals on why they blog.